Happy Thanksgiving!

I can't believe that another year has gone by so quickly. Where does the time go?
Treatments have been going okay. The infection and pain is now gone. I have about 8 treatments left which include doubling up and the boosts. Doubling up will be one visit at 8am and another at 3 or 4pm. That will happen for the last 5 days. I will be thrilled to be done with all of this and get back to as normal of a life as I can.

Talk is still in order for me moving to Kalispell. We have to still figure out the dates though I am feeling that it will be sometime early in January. Mark has prepared a surprise 4 day weekend vacation for us following my last treatment on Friday Dec. 4th. He will go with me for my last session and meet the medical gang I have come to know and love. They have all been asking so much about him. Then we will go back to my house, grab our bags and we are to.....I don't know where. The anticipation is killing me but I am sure that it will be worth the wait. He is a sweet man to do this for us.

I am spending Thanksgiving time up in Kalispell with Mark's family. His parent's are also coming to visit at the same time from Wisconsin. It will be the first meet. I am looking forward to that.
I hope that you all have a wonderful time with your family and friends.

Love to you all,

Shawnae

I am feeling defeated!!

Up until now I have been going along with the plan that they have given me. I have gotten about 18 sessions of radiation under my belt (so to say). I was taking the Tamoxifen for a month but got off of it. I was having big memory issues. I have been off of it now for a couple of weeks and doing better. I will start up again when the radiation treatment is done. I love the girls that I see daily for my sessions and feel like they have become friends.

For the past week I have had a dull aching pain in my breast that had the surgery. Last night it became very painful and today it was unbearable. I called the doctor and got tin to see and found that I have an infection inside of my breast. He says that the fluids build up in there and sometimes don't drain the way that they are supposed to and with having radiation my immunity is down. He started me on a 10 day antibiotic and I am back on my pain pills. I am looking forward to no pain. The feeling of pain just brings back home that "I am a breast cancer patient". A bit of reality that is so hard for me to accept. When I feel the pain I feel defeated and less of who I am.

Well, there is my update. Have a good week everyone.

I love you all,

Shawnae

Happy Halloween!!

It is Halloween weekend and I spent the weekend here up at Mark's house. WE were chaperones to a teenaged bonfire. It went really well and they had a lot of fun. After the bonfire a few kids went home and 4 stayed. 6 teens total soaked in the hot tub and then watched 3 movies following that, so it was an all nighter.

Andrew, Molly and I carved pumpkins under the supervision of Mark. We turned out 3 fantastic looking pumkins. Andrew carved an owl under the full moon, Molly carved a bunny, and I carved a cauldron. Later that night the 4 of us went into town and went trick of treating. That was a lot of fun and there were a TON of kids on 3rd street. It was amazing. I have never seen that many kids trick or treating in one area. Molly dressed as a fairy, Andrew was a Greek General, Mark was the Sherriff (to greet the teens at the house) and I was a Gothic fairy.

This morning Mark made busquits and gravy for all the kids. We are headed to church so I better get into the shower.

Hope that you all had a great weekend!!